It definitely wasn't about politics, so get that off your mind!
Up until we made up yesterday, I had to seriously consider what it would be like if she did leave and take my children away from me. My oldest son needs me more than my youngest does, and it would kill him, after all the promises I made that divorce happens to other families. My youngest son would be lost without his mother. He's my bestest little buddy, but he's momma's cuddle bug. As a child I went through divorce four times; the first two were devastating.
And of course there is my wife, who admittedly I take for granted in many ways. I've always been secure in the fact that she loves me. We aren't just some couple that have fallen into a rhythm of co-existence. We work on being better for one another. Last weekend was devastating, and it demonstrated how disatrously close any relationship, no matter how strong, is one wrong move away from destruction. Alliterate much?
And as a side note, here is a survival note for all you husbands out there. Women think completely different than we do. They are emotional first, and that trumps reason. That's not to say reason doesn't exist, but emotion needs an outlet and the best thing, if you have the stamina, is don't staunch the flow until it's all out.
But in that time when I was considering my future alone, I really came to appreciate what I have. I didn't care about politics, my future, playing my guitar, World of Warcraft, Call of Duty, not even about eating. Nothing mattered anymore.
Life is back to normal again, and I'm the luckiest guy I know.