Thursday, July 12, 2007

Nada Mucho

I'm going to attempt the blogger rounds today, throughout the day. There is a little break in my action, which sounds like I'm out-of-my-mind busy, but the truth is, that's only a part of it. I'm not sure if I'm going to be a full-time blogger anymore. In the library just the other night, I was describing to a lady friend the experience of watching the opening scene of Star Wars for the first time. Afterwards, she told me I should write about it. My first thought was to build an entire story around a fictional character set in that time, and not to share it here on my blog.

This is not to say I quit. But I have gone stale. What motivated me in the beginning is totally gone. Perhaps because I've written a few scenes with characters that are so charged with life that my own seems mundane. Or maybe I just want to save it; instead of telling the truth, as I like to do, I could really lay it out and have some fun with it.

I have a deep admiration for writers that can take their ordinary day and turn it into something special to read about. Someday I might be that kind of writer too, but there is something lacking in my appraisal of the world around me. There is something there, inside, simmering, steaming to come out. For some reason, the blog is not providing its release. Maybe it will in the future, when I figure out what it is that is bugging me.

10 comments:

24crayons said...

I can't even make the interesting moments in my life all that interesting. I don't blog for it to be interesting though, I just treat it sort of like a journal now aside from the HNT posts. ;)

I hope you find your creative outlet!

Jada's Gigi said...

I can totally relate. perhaps the new has simply worn off...cyberlife is actually not all that satisfying...and though it has a place..that place is not first and foremost for me...

mr. schprock said...

I sometimes feel something inside, simmering, steaming to come out, but believe me, no one would want me to write about that.

I'm in the blog doldrums myself. If anybody understands, I do. I think Jada's Gigi makes a good point.

Toni Anderson said...

Take a break--concentrate on what you want and go for it. Plus, you don't have to constantly be in the blogsphere, just visit and hang out occasionally. We should all enjoy the summer while we can LOL. Up here in Manitoba winter comes early and I'm damned if I'm going to miss the lovely days that aren't too hot by blogging :)

Dixie Belle said...

You have a great blog, Scott. I always enjoy reading it. Don't worry about it being interesting. But do keep your posts. Print them out or save them to a CD. Years from now, you'll enjoy reading them. And someday you may have grandchildren who'll get a kick out of what your wrote. Great-Grandpa's Blog!!! Seriously, I would have liked to have read something my grandparents wrote. I never knew them and have no inkling of what kind of people they really were.

Kim said...

I enjoy reading your blog, and I always find it interesting. I think that part of the appeal of reading someone else's blog is getting a little peek into their life and their thoughts. What bores you interests me, if you know what I mean.

Me said...

I blog/blogged to process stress and to accomplish self-therapy. Now that life is getting better, I blog less.

But good things cause stress too--like when I begin to date again.

I think we have that in common, so I'm looking forward to more Hard To Want. When you come to blog, I believe your natural storytelling ability will make your posts interesting; therefore I'm not worried.

:-)

Natalie said...

Scott-
I have sensed that your heart hasn't been in this for awhile, and that saddens me. Blogging is only for you so you should do what you feel comfortable with and what demands your priorities. That being said, my opinion is that you really have a fantastic site here and it's not time to close the book yet. Sure we all go through phases where we feel uninteresting or uninspired which makes the stellar posts so much better. This blog has evolved a lot from your memoirs to your fiction to more of a journal and I've enjoyed each of its incarnations. But the constant has been your support system, a fantastic group of readers who find the peek inside your mind entertaining no matter the subject. Even if you take another turn, consider keeping us around.

Bhaswati said...

I will echo Magnetbabe's thoughts (she described Hard To Want so eloquently). I have been where you are, Scott, wondering why I don't feel the push to post on the blog like I did before. Then, instead of abandoning it, I decided to return, even if I didn't post as much as I'd have liked to. I still appreciate the community spirit a blog generates. Writers are often in need of that kind of support, aren't they?

We sure don't want to lose you. :-)

Kathleen said...

Everybody goes through dry spells on the blog. Some never come back. I hope that won't be you.

And if I had a clue how to give you inspiration, I would do it.

Take care of yourself.